P.S I Love You....

I just watched 'P.S. I love You' and amazingly it has had such a deep impact on me that has led me move my fingers to pour out my feelings in this blog...

The movie starts on a rather strange mode, husband and wife having a tiff over a small issue and wife shouting at her husband for not planning out things and not planning out his life...it moves on with a very sad note with the husband dead who indeed has penned down a series of letters for his loving wife to be given to her after his death, with careful instructions planning her life ahead and also which give her the strength to continue to live her life, and seek out happiness, which of course was miraculously planned by the husband while he was alive.

The movie left me full in tears wondering whether such true and eternal love still exists...It amazes me to find around these days so many relationships given the name of love, meeting today,falling in love tomorrow,breaking up the day after, and that's not enough, finding a new one yet again the day after,and then again calling it true love.Alas! if only love was such a petty word to be wasted on everyone.

Love today is empowered by selfish motives of one and all.
Love has moved down to momentarily happiness not giving ultimate peace to one.
Love does not mean to share beautiful moments and part ways in difficult ones,
Love does not mean to share and care when life is moving on smooth,
love means to shower your blessings when road is all uphill,
Love is not being with someone for a life,but being with someone for an eternity,
Love is not being with a person till your life goes on,love is in being with someone also when your life ends.

The movie has moved and touched me to the bottom of my heart making me wonder if such eternal love only exists in some one's imagination and movies or it still does exist in real life.

Mum's the world for me...

That beautiful smile..the eternal love..that everlasting care..the warming hug..those ever helping hands..the serene face with gleaming eyes always thinking for dreams high...those small tiffs and those lectures big..that anger with concern that warming security....i missed them all as years passed by....Yes!!!! i missed u MOM more than i ever thought...

Six years is a big time...the day i left home for college and realized what warmth n love a mum is made of...

I missed you when my first tear dropped n you were not there to wipe it off...
I missed you when no one listened to my shouts at the dinner table n i had to sleep without food for the rest of the night...
I missed you in my exams when i had to put alarms to get up...
I missed your motivating words when the studies depressed me..
I missed your pat when i scored highest in my batch...
I indeed realized i had been brought up like a child divine...
I indeed then realized the precious gift that i had never taken care of...

The four years passed n i was excited beyond limits...but then came the professional world, and the distance now became larger...n this time it was worst..

I missed you much more than i ever did before...
I missed you the day i cooked my first meal...
I missed you the day i went to buy the first grocery...
I missed you the day i got my first salary...
I missed you the day i paid my first bill... [still can't understand how you could manage without a single frown]
I missed you the day i first shopped with my account...[never had i before realized i was such a spendthrift]
I missed your angry red face the day i had a first night out with friends...
I missed your rebukes the day i came late from the last movie show...
I missed your presence the day i had a tiff with my manager...
I missed your suggestions the day i had to take big decisions...
I missed your supportive hand on my head the day i started something new...

The years have changed and the seasons have rolled,i cannot now behold...to be in your arms enrolled....Yes mum...i am coming back...your little angel is coming back as a big girl with loads n loads of experiences of the big bad world...i will come n live each second of the six years missed...all the lovely talks...all the juicy gossips...all the wonderful laughs ...all the beautiful moments..all the peaceful dinners...all the exciting outings...all the teachings...all the preachings...will live each moment to the zenith...

Love you always...Maa...